I had thoughts of suicide before until I started thinking about how much love I'm getting from my family members/pets, favorite foods, favorite hobbies, discovering new things in life and the fear of the unknown after death.
If you kill yourself then everything single thing that makes you happy will be no more.....
Not everyone can win at tournaments, the chances of winning a tournament (besides getting good at games) is as common as winning money prizes at fast food places (like McDonalds & Buger King) which chances of winning money is low. If losing a tournament makes you want to post stuff like this, then you should stop doing these type of events and rethink your life choices.