1/2 and 1/2. As much as I like winning, I don't like winning a bs way or if the win doesn't progress me. I won against high ranks in Tekken & DOA but it means nothing cause I'm still not respected. I'm still overkilled and trolled so wins mean nothing. I can at best try to avoid it playing people like Eks or whoever where even if I lose, either it's good learning or it's for good laughs.
Though as of late I'm just watching and at most looking over tech in the dojo. I feel finding new techs more boosting than even winning. Especially when you do it on your own or if you're showing it to someone else. And I'm just in my safe haven where it's me, myself, I and whoever I want to look over.
I don't feel anything from winning or losing, i get enjoyment from playing in and of itself. I focus more on HOW I won/lost rather than THAT i won/lost. Means justify the ends, in my case.