Free Step Dodge

Totally get where you're coming from, and how the facelessness online can make everything easier.

Doesn't help with most western gay scenes being so cliquey. Everyone fronts so much - it's hard to identify with individuals who spend so much of their time with a false face on.

As a society, we rely so much on labels to understand things, which goes to shit when it comes to people - moreso when it comes to ourselves.

And having people on side, doesn't necessarily make dealing with your own disconnect with yourself any easier. Don't feel guilty for not feeling better, just because you're not necessarily the poster child for despair. There is *always* someone worse off. That doesn't mean *you* aren't suffering.

Plus, being told over and over that someone else loves you, doesn't make it any easier to love yourself. Why would it?

My only advice would be to look for the things in life that *do* make you happy - the spaces you can be where you can let the rest of it slide. Gaming, music, whatever that might be.

And just make sure you visit those spaces regularly - like coming up for air.

The rest - the bullshit attitude of others, the big career goals, irl friendship circles, relationships, whatever else that might be - it'll fall into place as it will. Or it won't. But the more time you spend with the aspects of yourself that you do love, the easier it will become to deal with the rest.

You know I understand you, maybe my advice will be bad, but relax, go with the flow, try to do something that distracts you from those thoughts. I feel bad too even now, my bf broke relationships, and because of I failed my finals, and have low chances for master degree but I just try to enjoy simple things for example watching serials and go to the beach and feel free to talk and crying with someone you close

Thanks for the advice @marussya and @ninemil I’m gonna have to find stuff that makes me happy.

Just enjoy the little things and talk about it when you want too, everyone shares something here so you can do it as well. Lots of people who are supportive here ♡

Thank you Nikki

If you're still capable of typing on a computer, trust me it could be even worse. A guy I knew all my life got hit on the head a while back, went into a coma now he's mostly paralysed, and can hardly talk. Appreciate what shitty life you still have, like me.

I am so sorry for him, I wish I could’ve done something but I can’t.
I might not have physical limitations like your friend, but I do have mental limitations in that regard. I’m not gonna tell you my entire life story, but don’t tell me that what I feel is just something I need to get over. Especially when I feel like this for almost 10 years now. I do appreciate the life and luxury that I have.

That, however doesn’t mean that I am happy with my life or life in general. I feel like I’m standing on a edge where the only way is down. I start to think about just jumping out of the window or in front of a train more often. To the point where I actually just wanna do it.

I'm trying to give ya an eye opener. I've had depression for more than 20 years. But this isn't a competition after all. Hope you feel better in time.

It's hard to believe, but there is a lot of people who would trade places with ya. It's fucked up, but it is what it is.

I know that, and I feel sorry for them, but you know that depression isn’t something you can fix in a week. It takes years to get out of and become a happy person.

I can't argue with that.

I'm actually shocked, I didn't know you were dealing with these horrific thoughts for so long. If you want someone to talk to, you can of course always send me a message. That's what friends are for right? I know I can't get rid of these terrible suicidal thoughts and I know I don't exactly understand how you feel, but I care abot you and support you the best I can. And like the others have said, keep doing what you

enjoy doing and eventually things will get better. It just takes a lot of time.

Wow, this means a lot to me Jaimy, thank you
I try to do the things I enjoy everyday. I hope that eventually I’ll get over these feelings. I usually don’t message people about these problems because I feel like I’m using people and they eventually get tired of me and my whining. That’s why I don’t really message anyone when I feel bad.

I care about you too Jaimy, I’m really glad you’re a friend of me.

I'm sure you'd support your friends as well if they were in trouble. You wouldn't bother me at all with it and if it would, I would tell you.

I'm glad you're a friend of me too, Brad.

That's true about the trading places thing ninemil mentioned. You could have something that other people think is luxury. I watch movies set in NYC and wonder, "geez everyone hypes this place up. It's shit. Smells like piss. Everything costs a lot and people here are crazy at times. I live there, I say. Not everything is like TV." (Though dramas are getting more plausible in their nature) I want life to be like a_